Waiting Is So Hard

If you have faith as a grain of mustard seed, you will say to your
mountain, "MOVE!" and it WILL move... and NOTHING will be
impossible for YOU!
- Matthew 17:20

I never in a million years would have imagined that going on five months after we submitted our dossier for Yana that we still would not have a date for our first trip. I don't know why. I can't give you answers. I just know that everyday I check my email and nothing...nothing. I swear you could hear the crickets chirping. When we committed to her I knew that it was going to be hard. At first they couldn't find a agency to facilitate her adoption. Her region is quite difficult and only allows for 35 referrals per agency per year. Most of the agencies get full with typical children, not allowing for many special needs adoptions. Then we found an agency. They couldn't decide at first if we should do independent or agency. We had to end up doing agency. There is a agency partner. We sent our dossier to them in September. We sent our translation representation fees then too. The Holidays were over in the middle of January. Still nothing. I know that this isn't the typical international adoption, for the most part they fly a lot smoother, so I don't want anyone considering adoption to be bummed.

At this point, things are going to start expiring. I just pray to God we at least get to see her before they do. I have had to fundraise and tuck money away to be able to get all this paperwork done. To think about doing it all over again doesn't bother me, but finding the money to pay for it all over again does. Don't get me wrong, she is worth all the money in the world. If I have to do it, I will find a way for our little girl to get home to us. Sometimes I wonder if something I did in my past is coming back to bite me in the butt. You know how karma is....

I just wanted to update all of you, although there really isn't much to update. For all of those people that think that people who adopt internationally are just doing it because it is easier then domestic, well let me say-YOU'RE WRONG! Adopting internationally is not easy. It is a labor of love. You have to fight just as hard as any other adoption. You can't see your child. You can't hold your child and often you don't know much about them. Would I do it all over again? For Yana, you bet your sweet behind I would. She will be home with us some day soon I hope. Please continue to pray for our Yana, our family, and the funds to be there as needed. God has been steadfast in all of this. My support from my friends, my family and my Reece's Rainbow family has been my backbone. Thank you all for everything....

Much Love, Lisa